December 31 – Core Story What central story is at the core of you, and how do you share it with the world? (Bonus: Consider your reflections from this month. Look through them to discover a thread you may not have noticed until today.)
When I first saw this prompt, I thought it would be really difficult to really find out what my core story is. I was thinking "oh, I'm only 23, I don't have one yet. I'm still trying to find out what I still want out of life." Then I thought about all my posts from the last month and my core story became clear.
My central story is about knowing yourself. This year has been full of learning about the person who should mean the most to me: me. No matter how many people come in and out of your life, you go to bed with yourself every night. Who would want to share a bed with a stranger? I feel that getting to know yourself and discovering who you are brings out a whole other side to you. A new self confidence takes over because you are more in tune with your wants and needs. A new awareness of yourself worth allows you to never settle for less and strut the streets like you know what you're doing - even though you may not have a clue. You leave your baggage and hang ups at the door and just step into a new you.
Working on who you are has been something that I have been doing since 2010 started and it really has made me into the person I want to be. I mean, we all have times where our self confidence is not exceptionally high, but knowing YOU allows to become a lot more resilient in my opinion. I purposefully stopped being interested in a romantic relationship to really gain a better sense of self and to learn that I don't need a relationship or a significant other in order to feel complete; all I need is myself and the support of my friends and family.
How do I share this with the world? By simply loving myself and being confident. When you respect yourself and carry yourself in a way that makes you happy, people notice. You may not think so, but they do. I was talking to a friend the other day and she stated that I can look good in just about anything because I have the confidence to pull it off. I disagreed, but maybe she has a point. If you think you look good, you DO look good (unless you're in jeggings; just kidding). Also giving advice when people ask for it. I tell them the story of my journey and how its really put a spin on my life for the better.
So the moral of the story is as follow: Know thyself. Get to know yourself, but also remember there is ALWAYS room for improvement. It'll make you happier, but if it doesn't, change it; make it for the better, and the new year is the perfect time to do so.
So hats off to 2010, and here's to whats to come in 2011.
Happy New Year.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Gifts.
December 30 – Gift Prompt: Gift. This month, gifts and gift-giving can seem inescapable. What’s the most memorable gift, tangible or emotional, you received this year?
The funny thing is, my most memorable gift that I have been given this year I have not yet experienced. A couple days after the new year, my family and I will be taking a family vacation to Las Vegas. This will be our first time ever to be in Vegas and also our first real family vacation in almost 10 years. Mom and dad were nice enough to book the trip in honor of my graduation and my sisters 21st birthday. We have been talking about this trip since we booked it back in August, and have been growing more and more excited as it gets closer. I have plans to take my sister to a karaoke bar for the first time, actually drink with my parents, and gamble for the first time. I know that this trip will bring us closer together as a family and will be a trip to remember.
...I really guess parents do give their kids the best gifts.
The funny thing is, my most memorable gift that I have been given this year I have not yet experienced. A couple days after the new year, my family and I will be taking a family vacation to Las Vegas. This will be our first time ever to be in Vegas and also our first real family vacation in almost 10 years. Mom and dad were nice enough to book the trip in honor of my graduation and my sisters 21st birthday. We have been talking about this trip since we booked it back in August, and have been growing more and more excited as it gets closer. I have plans to take my sister to a karaoke bar for the first time, actually drink with my parents, and gamble for the first time. I know that this trip will bring us closer together as a family and will be a trip to remember.
...I really guess parents do give their kids the best gifts.
Defining defining moments
December 29 – Defining Moment Describe a defining moment or series of events that has affected your life this year. (Author: Kathryn Fitzmaurice)
I graduated college. It took long enough, but it feels pretty good.
When I learned that I could actually read Tarot cards. Learning about my intuition has really helped me this year.
I was on the radio and on the local news in one summer. This made me want to get into voice over.
My fraternity received the most improved chapter within our district. This was the first district award that we had ever received.
My best friend left the country to go to school. It was difficult at first, but I have learned a lot about friendship through this experience.
I met some people that I know are going to be a part of my life for a very long time and I am very grateful for that.
There have been some moments during 2010 that I'll never forget. These are the ones that have helped shape who I am.
I graduated college. It took long enough, but it feels pretty good.
When I learned that I could actually read Tarot cards. Learning about my intuition has really helped me this year.
I was on the radio and on the local news in one summer. This made me want to get into voice over.
My fraternity received the most improved chapter within our district. This was the first district award that we had ever received.
My best friend left the country to go to school. It was difficult at first, but I have learned a lot about friendship through this experience.
I met some people that I know are going to be a part of my life for a very long time and I am very grateful for that.
There have been some moments during 2010 that I'll never forget. These are the ones that have helped shape who I am.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
What do I want out of the new year?
December 28 – Achieve
What’s the thing you most want to achieve next year? How do you imagine you’ll feel when you get it? Free? Happy? Complete? Blissful? Write that feeling down. Then, brainstorm 10 things you can do, or 10 new thoughts you can think, in order to experience that feeling today.
Goals. We all talk about it. All we want in life is to achieve them. Some of us kind of saunter through for a while a little aimless, until we find what it is that we want to achieve. Since I graduated, everyone wants to know what I want out of life, what I want to do for the rest of my life, or something that sounds similar to the prior two. I know what I want as a career, but not really the time line to get from point A to point B. Whats the ONE thing that I want to do in 2011? Well, here it is:
I want to record my voice over demo and break into the business.
How will I feel once I achieve this? Happy, accomplished, and even more happy. This is something I've wanted since September, and I'm looking to get it done as soon as I get the money to do so. What are 10 things I can do to experience that feeling?
1) Enjoy life a little more, especially now that I've graduated.
2) Start a "voice over demo" fund. This will help me actually get there
3) Get the most out of my trip to vegas ( which is in 6 days!!)
4) Make a To Do List for 2011 and actually do them.
5) Remind myself that people want me to succeed.
6) Practice.
7) Tell myself that this will be done and I will get work.
8) Believing I can actually do this
9) Talk to more people in the voice over industry and hear their feedback
10) Visualize that I recorded my demo.
I will probably make another post for my To Do in 2011 at some point. Hopefully today...but yeah, this is what I want out of the new year. I am excited that I kinda fell into voice over, so hopefully it will serve me well.
What’s the thing you most want to achieve next year? How do you imagine you’ll feel when you get it? Free? Happy? Complete? Blissful? Write that feeling down. Then, brainstorm 10 things you can do, or 10 new thoughts you can think, in order to experience that feeling today.
Goals. We all talk about it. All we want in life is to achieve them. Some of us kind of saunter through for a while a little aimless, until we find what it is that we want to achieve. Since I graduated, everyone wants to know what I want out of life, what I want to do for the rest of my life, or something that sounds similar to the prior two. I know what I want as a career, but not really the time line to get from point A to point B. Whats the ONE thing that I want to do in 2011? Well, here it is:
I want to record my voice over demo and break into the business.
How will I feel once I achieve this? Happy, accomplished, and even more happy. This is something I've wanted since September, and I'm looking to get it done as soon as I get the money to do so. What are 10 things I can do to experience that feeling?
1) Enjoy life a little more, especially now that I've graduated.
2) Start a "voice over demo" fund. This will help me actually get there
3) Get the most out of my trip to vegas ( which is in 6 days!!)
4) Make a To Do List for 2011 and actually do them.
5) Remind myself that people want me to succeed.
6) Practice.
7) Tell myself that this will be done and I will get work.
8) Believing I can actually do this
9) Talk to more people in the voice over industry and hear their feedback
10) Visualize that I recorded my demo.
I will probably make another post for my To Do in 2011 at some point. Hopefully today...but yeah, this is what I want out of the new year. I am excited that I kinda fell into voice over, so hopefully it will serve me well.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Not all service is created equal.
So I work in customer service. I have been working in customer service since high school, so I know how flexible (or not flexible) someone can/needs to be. I dont like to complain for the most part, but there are definitely times where I do. It usually happens when I feel that I get treated unfairly or I feel that someone blatantly ignores me.
There have only been 2 major events in which I had complained in the last couple of years.
1) I went to a salon and unknowingly was charged $30 on top of my $15 haircut for simply running a flat iron through my hair. I was almost late for work so I just signed the slip and went off on my merry way. Once I realized that I had just paid over $45 for a haircut that should have cost me $20, I was pretty upset. I called the manager and he was glad to refund part of it.
I go there after work and all over a sudden he refuses. Since flat ironing is a service, there is no way to refund the money, esp if I was okay with the haircut itself. Also the reason I was charged so much was b/c my hair was long. My hair was shoulder length at the time, which is not considered long. They also had expressed that their prices had just increased, but no where in the salon reflected the new prices. It even got to the point where he had the district manager on the phone with me. I also argued that on the back of the receipt it stated that if you were not satisfied you could get a full refund. It did not specify if it was on products or your haircut. I brought that to the manager and all he could do was give me some coupons and a free cut ( just the cut) the next time I came in. It was simply not good enough. I was just so frustrated about it that I called another salon and asked for the number of corporate. I called them, explaining my situation and how I was just so not happy. Long story short, I was mailed a gift card for the amount of the flat ironing.
2) This happened fairly recently. For those who do not know, I ADORE make - up. It has been a fairly recent hobby of mine, and I constantly want the newest and the best make up. I finally became a MAC fan and right after christmas they came out with two new collections. I decided to trek up to the mall after a snowstorm at my parents house to go check it out. I come up to the counter and I was casually greeted. I told her that I wanted to try a bunch of different products. Long story short, all that happened was that I was handed a brush and just told to have at it. There was one product that was not approved for wearing on the eyes (something I learned later that day) but yet I was told to try it out on my eyes and cheeks. She just kind of ignored me and I was fairly irritated when I was told to try something on my eyes that wasn't even meant for them. Nothing happened when I tried it, but what if something did?
I wrote an e-mail just expressing my disappointment about being misinformed, b/c I know it would not have happened if I went to the store I usually go to.
I guess what im trying to ask is this. As people who work in customer service, do we let lousy service slide or do we tell someone about someone who is not working up to par?
There have only been 2 major events in which I had complained in the last couple of years.
1) I went to a salon and unknowingly was charged $30 on top of my $15 haircut for simply running a flat iron through my hair. I was almost late for work so I just signed the slip and went off on my merry way. Once I realized that I had just paid over $45 for a haircut that should have cost me $20, I was pretty upset. I called the manager and he was glad to refund part of it.
I go there after work and all over a sudden he refuses. Since flat ironing is a service, there is no way to refund the money, esp if I was okay with the haircut itself. Also the reason I was charged so much was b/c my hair was long. My hair was shoulder length at the time, which is not considered long. They also had expressed that their prices had just increased, but no where in the salon reflected the new prices. It even got to the point where he had the district manager on the phone with me. I also argued that on the back of the receipt it stated that if you were not satisfied you could get a full refund. It did not specify if it was on products or your haircut. I brought that to the manager and all he could do was give me some coupons and a free cut ( just the cut) the next time I came in. It was simply not good enough. I was just so frustrated about it that I called another salon and asked for the number of corporate. I called them, explaining my situation and how I was just so not happy. Long story short, I was mailed a gift card for the amount of the flat ironing.
2) This happened fairly recently. For those who do not know, I ADORE make - up. It has been a fairly recent hobby of mine, and I constantly want the newest and the best make up. I finally became a MAC fan and right after christmas they came out with two new collections. I decided to trek up to the mall after a snowstorm at my parents house to go check it out. I come up to the counter and I was casually greeted. I told her that I wanted to try a bunch of different products. Long story short, all that happened was that I was handed a brush and just told to have at it. There was one product that was not approved for wearing on the eyes (something I learned later that day) but yet I was told to try it out on my eyes and cheeks. She just kind of ignored me and I was fairly irritated when I was told to try something on my eyes that wasn't even meant for them. Nothing happened when I tried it, but what if something did?
I wrote an e-mail just expressing my disappointment about being misinformed, b/c I know it would not have happened if I went to the store I usually go to.
I guess what im trying to ask is this. As people who work in customer service, do we let lousy service slide or do we tell someone about someone who is not working up to par?
Automatic Joy. Coin Operated Boy.
December 27 – Ordinary Joy Our most profound joy is often experienced during ordinary moments.
What was one of your most joyful ordinary moments this year? (Author: Brené Brown)
Over the summer, I had gone to the DC area two days in a row from Richmond to see Amanda Palmer. She has been a musician that I have looked up to since I was 17. I even have a tattoo that was inspired by her song Ampersand. I had brought Rickey with me the first night and my friend Chris on the second night. The first night was in Bethesda, MD in an old theater. Rickey and I had gotten up their early, so we grabbed a bite to eat and I decided to write her a letter. I have never been fanatic about anyone, but Amanda is the exception. I just have the utmost respect for everything she does and plus shes an AWESOME person. After she performed on stage, she went out to the lobby to sign things and meet her fans. I handed her the letter and asked her to sign my ukulele.
The next night happened and she remembered me from the night before. This time the show was in DC at the 9:30 club. She was happy to see that I had come back for more. The show went really well and I was stoked that I got to see my favorite artist two days in a row.
We headed back to richmond after the show, but hit a ton of traffic. It took way too long to get home and I was exhausted when I got back to my apartment. I decided to hop on my computer right before bed, just to see if she said anything about the show. She did. I continued to look on here twitterfeed, and I saw something right before I went to bed:
"@socolime367 I just read the letter you gave me @ the ninja gig last night. thank you my darling"
I cried.
What was one of your most joyful ordinary moments this year? (Author: Brené Brown)
Over the summer, I had gone to the DC area two days in a row from Richmond to see Amanda Palmer. She has been a musician that I have looked up to since I was 17. I even have a tattoo that was inspired by her song Ampersand. I had brought Rickey with me the first night and my friend Chris on the second night. The first night was in Bethesda, MD in an old theater. Rickey and I had gotten up their early, so we grabbed a bite to eat and I decided to write her a letter. I have never been fanatic about anyone, but Amanda is the exception. I just have the utmost respect for everything she does and plus shes an AWESOME person. After she performed on stage, she went out to the lobby to sign things and meet her fans. I handed her the letter and asked her to sign my ukulele.
The next night happened and she remembered me from the night before. This time the show was in DC at the 9:30 club. She was happy to see that I had come back for more. The show went really well and I was stoked that I got to see my favorite artist two days in a row.
We headed back to richmond after the show, but hit a ton of traffic. It took way too long to get home and I was exhausted when I got back to my apartment. I decided to hop on my computer right before bed, just to see if she said anything about the show. She did. I continued to look on here twitterfeed, and I saw something right before I went to bed:
"@socolime367 I just read the letter you gave me @ the ninja gig last night. thank you my darling"
I cried.
Meals are always opportunities for memories
December 26 – Soul Food
What did you eat this year that you will never forget? What went into your mouth & touched your soul?
One meal I won't forget is when my little in the fraternity, Rickey and I had an end - of - the semester meal just to blow off some steam. My friend's fiance is the head chef at a local restaurant and the food is always delicious. It was early May and they had just changed up the menu not too long ago. Some of the highlights that I remember is an edible flower salad, octopus salami, and sausage with asagio and granny smith apple. The one thing just melted my heart was the White Chocolate Mousse with fresh berries. It was just the richest, creamiest thing I had ever put into my mouth. I LOVE chocolate and it was just so good that it is beyond words. Also it was just a good day and we had a good time. That meal just makes me want to go back there again and again. It is just that good.
What did you eat this year that you will never forget? What went into your mouth & touched your soul?
One meal I won't forget is when my little in the fraternity, Rickey and I had an end - of - the semester meal just to blow off some steam. My friend's fiance is the head chef at a local restaurant and the food is always delicious. It was early May and they had just changed up the menu not too long ago. Some of the highlights that I remember is an edible flower salad, octopus salami, and sausage with asagio and granny smith apple. The one thing just melted my heart was the White Chocolate Mousse with fresh berries. It was just the richest, creamiest thing I had ever put into my mouth. I LOVE chocolate and it was just so good that it is beyond words. Also it was just a good day and we had a good time. That meal just makes me want to go back there again and again. It is just that good.
Photograph.
December 25 – Photo – a present to yourself
Sift through all the photos of you from the past year. Choose one that best captures you; either who you are, or who you strive to be. Find the shot of you that is worth a thousand words. Share the image, who shot it, where, and what it best reveals about you.
This photo was taken on Oct. 9, 2010. It was shot by my friend Tim at approximately 10:45 am. He edited it after the convention, but it is hands down my favorite shot of 2010. This is me looking over the out from the second level of the ferry on the way to NYC. I had worked really hard to pull off my makeup that morning and also I love the fact that I am looking out, but you cant see what I'm looking at exactly. I feel its almost symbolic of me looking towards my future (and how awesome my hair and makeup was).
Sift through all the photos of you from the past year. Choose one that best captures you; either who you are, or who you strive to be. Find the shot of you that is worth a thousand words. Share the image, who shot it, where, and what it best reveals about you.
Be OK.
December 24 Prompt – Everything’s OK What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead? (Author: Kate Inglis)
Once I knew I was graduating, I knew that everything was going to be alright. I had planned on graduating this part May, but things just didn't work out. College was a long bumpy road with lots of setbacks, twists, and turns. One of the things I did learn is that things happen for a reason. Also while in undergrad I have also learned that I will always get what I need in order to be happy. It may not always seem that way at the time, but something out there just has a funny way of providing for me.
This will help me in the year ahead with stress. I don't have to stress/worry as much as I actually do. I want to let go and just let the powers at be just take me in the direction I need to be in (once I figure out where I actually want to be).
Once I knew I was graduating, I knew that everything was going to be alright. I had planned on graduating this part May, but things just didn't work out. College was a long bumpy road with lots of setbacks, twists, and turns. One of the things I did learn is that things happen for a reason. Also while in undergrad I have also learned that I will always get what I need in order to be happy. It may not always seem that way at the time, but something out there just has a funny way of providing for me.
This will help me in the year ahead with stress. I don't have to stress/worry as much as I actually do. I want to let go and just let the powers at be just take me in the direction I need to be in (once I figure out where I actually want to be).
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Let me Introduce Myself...
December 23 – New Name Let’s meet again, for the first time. If you could introduce yourself to strangers by another name for just one day, what would it be and why? (Author: Becca Wilcott)
Nemesis Paige - Nemesis was Zeus's right hand. She is the Goddess of Righteous Anger and she was the one who saw to it that all good and evil were justly paid. How cool is that? Pretty Bad Ass.
Paige - I just though it would flow nicely.
I have always wanted a name that had an air of mystery behind it. Also I feel like it would make an awesome stage name. So yeah, my name is Nemesis. Nemesis Paige. I think it fits nicely.
Nemesis Paige - Nemesis was Zeus's right hand. She is the Goddess of Righteous Anger and she was the one who saw to it that all good and evil were justly paid. How cool is that? Pretty Bad Ass.
Paige - I just though it would flow nicely.
I have always wanted a name that had an air of mystery behind it. Also I feel like it would make an awesome stage name. So yeah, my name is Nemesis. Nemesis Paige. I think it fits nicely.
Travel.
December 22 – Travel How did you travel in 2010? How and/or where would you like to travel next year? (Author: Tara Hunt)
How did I travel? Mostly by car, but to some places I've never been before. I traveled all the way up to Maine for a fraternity convention. There was a roadkill incident in MA, but all in all it was a good trip. I had awesome friends who treated us out to dinner both on the way up and on the way back. I also got to spend time with some family up in Maine. It is so pretty up there and the weekend I spent there was a blast.
I also got to go to NYC for NY Comicon. It was my first time going and it was a blast. I also got to meet Katee Sackhoff, who played Starbuck in the series Battlestar Galactica. I saw lots of cool panels, talked to some really neat people and even took a picture with pedobear. I took the ferry into the city each day and the weather was gorgeous. I can't wait to go back next year.
I also had the pleasure of visiting my hometown twice in one month. One weekend was for NYCC and the other trip was the trip my sister and I take every year. It was nice being around old friends. I got to see someone who I haven't seen since I was 18. It was semi - emotional for me because he was one of the people who literally watched me grow up. Hes known me since I was 12 or 13. Also I just love being up in NJ.
Right after the New Year starts, I will be going to Las Vegas for the first time with the family for my sisters 21st. In March I'll be going to Atlantic City with family friends in order to celebrate all of our birthdays. Hopefully in July I will be going to Rhode Island, Massachusetts, and Colorado. Also in Oct, I will be going back to NYCC. So lots of traveling in the next year.
How did I travel? Mostly by car, but to some places I've never been before. I traveled all the way up to Maine for a fraternity convention. There was a roadkill incident in MA, but all in all it was a good trip. I had awesome friends who treated us out to dinner both on the way up and on the way back. I also got to spend time with some family up in Maine. It is so pretty up there and the weekend I spent there was a blast.
I also got to go to NYC for NY Comicon. It was my first time going and it was a blast. I also got to meet Katee Sackhoff, who played Starbuck in the series Battlestar Galactica. I saw lots of cool panels, talked to some really neat people and even took a picture with pedobear. I took the ferry into the city each day and the weather was gorgeous. I can't wait to go back next year.
I also had the pleasure of visiting my hometown twice in one month. One weekend was for NYCC and the other trip was the trip my sister and I take every year. It was nice being around old friends. I got to see someone who I haven't seen since I was 18. It was semi - emotional for me because he was one of the people who literally watched me grow up. Hes known me since I was 12 or 13. Also I just love being up in NJ.
Right after the New Year starts, I will be going to Las Vegas for the first time with the family for my sisters 21st. In March I'll be going to Atlantic City with family friends in order to celebrate all of our birthdays. Hopefully in July I will be going to Rhode Island, Massachusetts, and Colorado. Also in Oct, I will be going back to NYCC. So lots of traveling in the next year.
To my Future and Younger Self
December 21 – Future Self. Imagine yourself five years from now. What advice would you give your current self for the year ahead? (Bonus: Write a note to yourself 10 years ago. What would you tell your younger self?) (Author: Jenny Blake)
To my 28 year old self:
Merry Christmas! Hopefully you spent it with the fam and all the pets. Or perhaps you've spent it with your own family (if you're single, you might want to get on that; you're not getting any younger!). Here is some advice from your younger self:
1) Don't worry so much. You have the tools you have to succeed already and things usually have a way of working themselves out.
2) Trust your intuition. Its better than you think
3) Stay focused
4) People don't really change, so don't expect them to.
5) Know your worth and never settle for less.
6) Do what makes you happy.
7) Be passionate about what you do.
Love always,
Yourself at 23.
To my 13 yr old self:
Things are good. You lived, learned, and came out relatively unscathed. Boys broke your heart, but you got over it. You're happy, graduated college a little later than expected. Mom and dad are fine and you finally got that dog you've been asking for forever. The extended family isn't what you think it is, but you know who your family is. You know who really cares about you. Always remember that things so work out and that things happens for a reason. You should be proud of yourself, the person you've become seems pretty darn cool :)
- You at 23.
To my 28 year old self:
Merry Christmas! Hopefully you spent it with the fam and all the pets. Or perhaps you've spent it with your own family (if you're single, you might want to get on that; you're not getting any younger!). Here is some advice from your younger self:
1) Don't worry so much. You have the tools you have to succeed already and things usually have a way of working themselves out.
2) Trust your intuition. Its better than you think
3) Stay focused
4) People don't really change, so don't expect them to.
5) Know your worth and never settle for less.
6) Do what makes you happy.
7) Be passionate about what you do.
Love always,
Yourself at 23.
To my 13 yr old self:
Things are good. You lived, learned, and came out relatively unscathed. Boys broke your heart, but you got over it. You're happy, graduated college a little later than expected. Mom and dad are fine and you finally got that dog you've been asking for forever. The extended family isn't what you think it is, but you know who your family is. You know who really cares about you. Always remember that things so work out and that things happens for a reason. You should be proud of yourself, the person you've become seems pretty darn cool :)
- You at 23.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Would've Could've Should've...but didn't.
December 20 – Beyond Avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?) (Author: Jake Nickell)
I should have written more. I always have these blog posts floating in my head, but never get the actual bright idea to write it down when it comes. Going to school and working also didnt help with the time I wanted to spend writing either. Also by the time I sit down at my computer, the post has already left me. This is why I decided to buy a moleskine or two and carry it around with me, but writing in it was also smoething that I became too busy. I felt like my writing motivation has dropped in the last couple of years or maybe life has just happened. This is exactly why I decided to participate in Reverb 10. It got me writing more frequently and has made me want to write more. So yes, I will be doing what I didn't do this past year. Actually, I'm doing it now. Hopefully this activity will allow me to maintain this blog into the new year.
I should have written more. I always have these blog posts floating in my head, but never get the actual bright idea to write it down when it comes. Going to school and working also didnt help with the time I wanted to spend writing either. Also by the time I sit down at my computer, the post has already left me. This is why I decided to buy a moleskine or two and carry it around with me, but writing in it was also smoething that I became too busy. I felt like my writing motivation has dropped in the last couple of years or maybe life has just happened. This is exactly why I decided to participate in Reverb 10. It got me writing more frequently and has made me want to write more. So yes, I will be doing what I didn't do this past year. Actually, I'm doing it now. Hopefully this activity will allow me to maintain this blog into the new year.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Heal and be Healed.
December 19 – Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011? (Author: Leonie Allan)
What healed me this year happened on Dec. 1. Dashboard Confessional was playing at the National and one of my friends who I had not seen in over a year said that it was a show that I HAD to go to. He was going to be in Richmond for the show and there was no excuse for me not to be there. This year was the 10 year anniversary of the Swiss Army Romance, so he was going to be playing that record in its entirety. Also, Good Old War was playing, so all in all is was going to be a good show. My friend who I was meeting up with was a really good friend from when I used to work down at the Aquarium. We became instant friends and I often refer to him as my "gay husband." He's my soulmate; we just have the same taste in men :) . He has been sick for a while, so I make sure to check in with him from time to time. We're both busy people, so we dont get to see each other a whole bunch; honestly, there was no better person I could have been with during that set. Dashboard played all the older songs; the songs I would listen to during the times I thought my world had shattered. The days that I found out that some boy didn't love me anymore; the times when I thought life couldn't get any worse. It brought me back to a place where things were simpler; the pain still felt the same, but life was simpler. It made me homesick where all the people I cared about were. This set just put me in awe because it was just him and guitar and the music was perfect. I had not seen Dashboard since about 2005 or 2006, so it was just ... awesome. That night healed me because the music just spoke to me, just like it did when I was 17, but it had even more meaning that I was with one of my best friends, gushing over the music that was such a big part of both of us and we got to share this moment together. Its a night I wont be able to forget for a while.
How would I like to be healed in 2011? Probably in a metaphysical way. My spirit really isn't old, but something connected to me I feel is. I feel that either energy healing, or just tapping into my past more would really help me heal in the next year.
What healed me this year happened on Dec. 1. Dashboard Confessional was playing at the National and one of my friends who I had not seen in over a year said that it was a show that I HAD to go to. He was going to be in Richmond for the show and there was no excuse for me not to be there. This year was the 10 year anniversary of the Swiss Army Romance, so he was going to be playing that record in its entirety. Also, Good Old War was playing, so all in all is was going to be a good show. My friend who I was meeting up with was a really good friend from when I used to work down at the Aquarium. We became instant friends and I often refer to him as my "gay husband." He's my soulmate; we just have the same taste in men :) . He has been sick for a while, so I make sure to check in with him from time to time. We're both busy people, so we dont get to see each other a whole bunch; honestly, there was no better person I could have been with during that set. Dashboard played all the older songs; the songs I would listen to during the times I thought my world had shattered. The days that I found out that some boy didn't love me anymore; the times when I thought life couldn't get any worse. It brought me back to a place where things were simpler; the pain still felt the same, but life was simpler. It made me homesick where all the people I cared about were. This set just put me in awe because it was just him and guitar and the music was perfect. I had not seen Dashboard since about 2005 or 2006, so it was just ... awesome. That night healed me because the music just spoke to me, just like it did when I was 17, but it had even more meaning that I was with one of my best friends, gushing over the music that was such a big part of both of us and we got to share this moment together. Its a night I wont be able to forget for a while.
How would I like to be healed in 2011? Probably in a metaphysical way. My spirit really isn't old, but something connected to me I feel is. I feel that either energy healing, or just tapping into my past more would really help me heal in the next year.
Do or Do not; there is no try....or is there?
December 18 – Try What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it? (Author: Kaileen Elise)
Something I want to try next year is something called cupping. It where glass or plastic bell shaped cups are placed on an area of your skin, such as your back, and a vacuum sucks the air out of the cups. Its a form or relaxation or detoxing...Think of it as acupuncture without all the needles. I think it would be a cool thing to experience. I havent done too much research on it, but I have talked to people who have gotten it done, and they all love it.
Something I tried in 2010 was attending an open casting call for a radio commercial. I randomly saw it on twitter. It was for the state fair, so I signed up and got there right after work over the summer. I was so nervous since quite a few people have stated that they have had prior training. Some had already done voice overs before, other have taken classes on how to get into the voice over industry. I had never recorded in a studio before, so everything was very new to me, yet very exciting. They called into the studio four at a time and had us read through a script. I had done read through and the people record seemed very pleased. I walked away feeling really good and just so excited about what had just took place. We weren't going to find out if we made the cut until the commercials actually started airing on the radio.
Sept 1st came around, and my roommate informs me that she swore she heard my voice on the radio. I had not been informed yet via e-mail if I had made the cut. A day passes and still no word. Later on that day I finally get an e-mail saying I had made the cut and that a clip was on its way to my in box. I also got to hear myself on the radio a couple of times and friends text me when they heard me while they were driving around. It definitely was one of the coolest moments of 2010.
Something I want to try next year is something called cupping. It where glass or plastic bell shaped cups are placed on an area of your skin, such as your back, and a vacuum sucks the air out of the cups. Its a form or relaxation or detoxing...Think of it as acupuncture without all the needles. I think it would be a cool thing to experience. I havent done too much research on it, but I have talked to people who have gotten it done, and they all love it.
Something I tried in 2010 was attending an open casting call for a radio commercial. I randomly saw it on twitter. It was for the state fair, so I signed up and got there right after work over the summer. I was so nervous since quite a few people have stated that they have had prior training. Some had already done voice overs before, other have taken classes on how to get into the voice over industry. I had never recorded in a studio before, so everything was very new to me, yet very exciting. They called into the studio four at a time and had us read through a script. I had done read through and the people record seemed very pleased. I walked away feeling really good and just so excited about what had just took place. We weren't going to find out if we made the cut until the commercials actually started airing on the radio.
Sept 1st came around, and my roommate informs me that she swore she heard my voice on the radio. I had not been informed yet via e-mail if I had made the cut. A day passes and still no word. Later on that day I finally get an e-mail saying I had made the cut and that a clip was on its way to my in box. I also got to hear myself on the radio a couple of times and friends text me when they heard me while they were driving around. It definitely was one of the coolest moments of 2010.
We live. We learn.
December 17 – Lesson Learned - What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward? (Author: Tara Weaver)
I learned that I can do better. I can be better. I don't have to settle. Also, that I'm stronger than I think I am. There have been lots of ups and downs over this past year. I was supposed to graduate, but then I didnt, and at the end of 2010, I finally did. I also don't put up with the drama anymore. I also quit being so negative all the time, it doesn't do anything for anyone.
I feel that these lessons will just help me keep my head on straight. Everything I've learned about myself over this past year has made me a better person. I am looking for what the upcoming year has for me. I feel that I am happy with the person I'm becoming. There's nowhere to go but up from here :)
I learned that I can do better. I can be better. I don't have to settle. Also, that I'm stronger than I think I am. There have been lots of ups and downs over this past year. I was supposed to graduate, but then I didnt, and at the end of 2010, I finally did. I also don't put up with the drama anymore. I also quit being so negative all the time, it doesn't do anything for anyone.
I feel that these lessons will just help me keep my head on straight. Everything I've learned about myself over this past year has made me a better person. I am looking for what the upcoming year has for me. I feel that I am happy with the person I'm becoming. There's nowhere to go but up from here :)
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Friendship
December 16 – Friendship How has a friend changed you or your perspective on the world this year? Was this change gradual, or a sudden burst? (Author: Martha Mihalick)
Imagine getting news that your best friend for most of your college career decided that the states were no longer for her and she'll be moving to South America for the remainder of her college career. It was a shock. She was a former roommate and my confidant. I can tell her ANYTHING. It took a little while to get used to the fact that in a couple of months, she would be living in a completely differently country all together. I honestly did not know what I was going to do with myself. It was very difficult to say goodbye.
Our friendship has totally changed my perspective on what it is to be a good friend. Moreover, we both learned about ourselves and the people we both considered friends. Relationships take work. Most people don't realize this. I'm not saying that being a friend is work, but be a good friend takes time and effort. The part I missed most about her being in Richmond is calling her after last call and telling her about the antics of that night. Other than that, the distance allowed us to reflect more on the ways we have changed over the years. We learned that we have grown and changed for the better. I dont fly off the handle as much and she has learned how to put her foot down and be more assertive. We both learned there is a much bigger world that the bubble we live in at our schools.
The change was definitely gradual. Also, when I go through something she can add a new perspective since she isn't around all the time. We point out the not - so - obvious in one another. Also it proves how strong friendship can be, even though we live miles apart. Its comforting knowing that someone out there really cares (even though they dont have to, they just do).
Imagine getting news that your best friend for most of your college career decided that the states were no longer for her and she'll be moving to South America for the remainder of her college career. It was a shock. She was a former roommate and my confidant. I can tell her ANYTHING. It took a little while to get used to the fact that in a couple of months, she would be living in a completely differently country all together. I honestly did not know what I was going to do with myself. It was very difficult to say goodbye.
Our friendship has totally changed my perspective on what it is to be a good friend. Moreover, we both learned about ourselves and the people we both considered friends. Relationships take work. Most people don't realize this. I'm not saying that being a friend is work, but be a good friend takes time and effort. The part I missed most about her being in Richmond is calling her after last call and telling her about the antics of that night. Other than that, the distance allowed us to reflect more on the ways we have changed over the years. We learned that we have grown and changed for the better. I dont fly off the handle as much and she has learned how to put her foot down and be more assertive. We both learned there is a much bigger world that the bubble we live in at our schools.
The change was definitely gradual. Also, when I go through something she can add a new perspective since she isn't around all the time. We point out the not - so - obvious in one another. Also it proves how strong friendship can be, even though we live miles apart. Its comforting knowing that someone out there really cares (even though they dont have to, they just do).
Saturday, December 18, 2010
And the time starts now..
December 15 – 5 Minutes Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010. (Author: Patti Digh)
You took the place of a lead singer drunkenly and sang some journey
You drove to see amanda palmer twice in 48 hours. She also @ replied to you on twitter and read the fan mail you gave her in bethesda
You picked up an online friend from the airport, had a good time at sticky, and a day or two later stayed up till 3 am listening to music and talking with friends in darkness.
You bought a ukulele
Your best friend moved to Chile, but shes coming back soon
You graduated college (finally)
You went to NYCC, met Starbuck, saw Seth Green, and found Waldo
Music Therapy is what you want to do in life ever since you talked to that awesome therapist in NJ
You were in a radio commercial; now you want to try voice over for real :)
You learned your self worth
I want to expound on some of these moments, but I oddly like the simplicity of the list. So I'm going to keep it that way.
You took the place of a lead singer drunkenly and sang some journey
You drove to see amanda palmer twice in 48 hours. She also @ replied to you on twitter and read the fan mail you gave her in bethesda
You picked up an online friend from the airport, had a good time at sticky, and a day or two later stayed up till 3 am listening to music and talking with friends in darkness.
You bought a ukulele
Your best friend moved to Chile, but shes coming back soon
You graduated college (finally)
You went to NYCC, met Starbuck, saw Seth Green, and found Waldo
Music Therapy is what you want to do in life ever since you talked to that awesome therapist in NJ
You were in a radio commercial; now you want to try voice over for real :)
You learned your self worth
I want to expound on some of these moments, but I oddly like the simplicity of the list. So I'm going to keep it that way.
Appreciation.
December 14 – Appreciate What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it? (Author: Victoria Klein)
My friends/family. I'm not talking about my friends and family. I use the term as one in the same. As I have gotten older, I have become more selective about the company I keep. I learned that not everything you tell someone in secret remains a secret. So those I really keep close to me are people I can trust with my life. There have been a lot of ups and downs, and my friends have always been there for me. The way I express gratitude for them? I tell them. I do nice things for them. I try to treat them as well as they treat me. It's always nice to feel appreciated, so I try to make them feel that way.
My friends/family. I'm not talking about my friends and family. I use the term as one in the same. As I have gotten older, I have become more selective about the company I keep. I learned that not everything you tell someone in secret remains a secret. So those I really keep close to me are people I can trust with my life. There have been a lot of ups and downs, and my friends have always been there for me. The way I express gratitude for them? I tell them. I do nice things for them. I try to treat them as well as they treat me. It's always nice to feel appreciated, so I try to make them feel that way.
What's Next?
December 13 – Action When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step? (Author: Scott Belsky)
Being a recent college graduate, I had to answer this question quite often. What's next? Are you thinking about Grad school? Where do you want to go? You get the deal.
So what's my next step?
My next step is to lay back and enjoy life a little more. Relax a little without the stress of going to classes. I will still be working at the museum and possibly looking at getting into the voice over industry. I was in a commercial over the summer and visited two recording studios over the semester. I would LOVE to use this as an opportunity to help pay for grad school. I also want to start writing more, earn more money and just be happier. Catch up with life a little. Play a little more and just smile more.
My next step is to get happy. :)
Being a recent college graduate, I had to answer this question quite often. What's next? Are you thinking about Grad school? Where do you want to go? You get the deal.
So what's my next step?
My next step is to lay back and enjoy life a little more. Relax a little without the stress of going to classes. I will still be working at the museum and possibly looking at getting into the voice over industry. I was in a commercial over the summer and visited two recording studios over the semester. I would LOVE to use this as an opportunity to help pay for grad school. I also want to start writing more, earn more money and just be happier. Catch up with life a little. Play a little more and just smile more.
My next step is to get happy. :)
Being one - Body & Soul
December 12 – Body Integration This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present? (Author: Patrick Reynolds)
It was my mother's 50th birthday. My sister and I had prepared a song, For Good from the musical Wicked. When we got to the party location, they were not able to play the CD (how they weren't able to, I will never figure out). So I noticed that there was a Karaoke machine. For those who are reading this and don't know me, I LOVE KARAOKE. I live for it. I checked out their song listing, and I found my favorite song - Somebody to Love by Queen. My mother has heard me sing growing up but she never believed that I could ACTUALLY sing. "oh, Krystle thinks she can sing," was the usual thought that left my mothers mouth. I went ahead and belted my heart out. It felt SO good and I knew that was the night my mother's opinion of my singing had changed. It was the night I convinced her that I can really do it. Auditioning for American Idol became a topic of conversation for the days to follow. It may have been my mothers birthday but this event was definitely a present for me as well.
It was my mother's 50th birthday. My sister and I had prepared a song, For Good from the musical Wicked. When we got to the party location, they were not able to play the CD (how they weren't able to, I will never figure out). So I noticed that there was a Karaoke machine. For those who are reading this and don't know me, I LOVE KARAOKE. I live for it. I checked out their song listing, and I found my favorite song - Somebody to Love by Queen. My mother has heard me sing growing up but she never believed that I could ACTUALLY sing. "oh, Krystle thinks she can sing," was the usual thought that left my mothers mouth. I went ahead and belted my heart out. It felt SO good and I knew that was the night my mother's opinion of my singing had changed. It was the night I convinced her that I can really do it. Auditioning for American Idol became a topic of conversation for the days to follow. It may have been my mothers birthday but this event was definitely a present for me as well.
Monday, December 13, 2010
11 Things... or so.
December 11 – 11 Things What are 11 things your life doesn’t need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life? (Author: Sam Davidson)
I feel that 11 things are quite a few to eliminate, but I also feel that it is human nature to complain, so maybe I can come up with that many.
1) Unnecessary drama - I hate drama. I hate petty - ness. When those two are combined I just cannot handle it.Check your drama at the door, Thanks.
2) More Negativity - Negative Outlooks and Attitudes are things I would like to completely eradicate from my life. I mean, there are going to be time when im not happy, but expecting the worse all the time is just not the way to live. When you send out good vibes, you get them back. Same thing goes for bad ones.
3) The Need for a male companion - I am girl and lets face it, we all get lonely. This past year I have learned tolive with love myself and its been great. I just really need to let go of wanting a man in my life. It doesn't happen too often, but it does happen. It should stop.
4) Gossip - I dont like being talked about, therefore I should not talk about others. See: Unnecessary drama.
5) Laziness - I love to sleep. I love to relax. I love to do nothing. I need to be more productive.
6) Stress - I just need to learn to just let some things go.
7) Anger - See: stress.
8-11) Bad Decisions - I just need to think some things through.
There it is. Honestly, not too much is going that badly that I need to get rid of completely. There are just things I need to work on. 2011 is going to be great.
I feel that 11 things are quite a few to eliminate, but I also feel that it is human nature to complain, so maybe I can come up with that many.
1) Unnecessary drama - I hate drama. I hate petty - ness. When those two are combined I just cannot handle it.Check your drama at the door, Thanks.
2) More Negativity - Negative Outlooks and Attitudes are things I would like to completely eradicate from my life. I mean, there are going to be time when im not happy, but expecting the worse all the time is just not the way to live. When you send out good vibes, you get them back. Same thing goes for bad ones.
3) The Need for a male companion - I am girl and lets face it, we all get lonely. This past year I have learned to
4) Gossip - I dont like being talked about, therefore I should not talk about others. See: Unnecessary drama.
5) Laziness - I love to sleep. I love to relax. I love to do nothing. I need to be more productive.
6) Stress - I just need to learn to just let some things go.
7) Anger - See: stress.
8-11) Bad Decisions - I just need to think some things through.
There it is. Honestly, not too much is going that badly that I need to get rid of completely. There are just things I need to work on. 2011 is going to be great.
Friday, December 10, 2010
As we age, we get wiser....right?
December 10 – Wisdom Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? (Author: Susannah Conway)
I decided not to settle. Ever. One thing I pride myself upon is the fact that I know myself pretty well. As funny as that sounds, it is surprising how many people don't really know who they are. Over the last couple of months reflection has been a good friend of mine. I am not currently dating anyone, so I tend to get lonely from time to time. When I get lonely, I tend to lower my standards for the companionship that I long to have. After a while, things get old and being disappointed all the time just doesn't cut it for anyone. I now have this belief:
When you realize how much you are worth, it is very hard to settle for less.
Believing this statement and learning/appreciating my worth was the best decision I've made all year. I feel that it has served me well. I don't get disappointed as often and after realizing my own self worth, I have gain a little more confidence; and that's a pretty sweet outcome don't ya think?
I decided not to settle. Ever. One thing I pride myself upon is the fact that I know myself pretty well. As funny as that sounds, it is surprising how many people don't really know who they are. Over the last couple of months reflection has been a good friend of mine. I am not currently dating anyone, so I tend to get lonely from time to time. When I get lonely, I tend to lower my standards for the companionship that I long to have. After a while, things get old and being disappointed all the time just doesn't cut it for anyone. I now have this belief:
When you realize how much you are worth, it is very hard to settle for less.
Believing this statement and learning/appreciating my worth was the best decision I've made all year. I feel that it has served me well. I don't get disappointed as often and after realizing my own self worth, I have gain a little more confidence; and that's a pretty sweet outcome don't ya think?
PAAAARTY TIME!!!
December 9 – Party Prompt: Party. What social gathering rocked your socks off in 2010? Describe the people, music, food, drink, clothes, shenanigans. (Author: Shauna Reid)
The funny thing is I was just talking to someone about this exact thing this evening. It was over the summer and the museum that I work at had extended hours that evening. Most of the staff was working that evening, and I was trying to convince two of my co-workers to come out to karaoke ( which was my usual friday night ritual). Both of them were reluctant, due to the fact that they had just finished a 13 hour shift. Someone else on staff suggest we go to the bar across the street after our shifts were over, and we all agreed.
At first, we almost didn't get into the bar, due to a cover charge; however, one of the bouncers saw us, and was like you let us use your parking lot, so there would be no way that they would charge us. So we got the hook up and went in for free. There was a band and a couple of their groupies. The guys in the band ranged from their late 20s to early 40s. The lead singer was reading off of lyric sheets. Their groupies looked like women who were desperate to recapture their lost youth. Apparently this was NOT the place to be on a friday night. The crowd was sparse, probably due to the lame band.
So anyway, someone buys a pitcher. Followed by another pitcher. All of a sudden we notice the lead singer started to heckle our table. "Who drew the Ace?" the lead singer yelled. I looked around and raised my hand, thinking maybe he would give us something. He challenged us to chug our beers after the next song. Our waitress brought out a pitcher of the beer we had been already quickly consuming since we sat at our table. Right before the song was over, I had asked one of the groupies if i could sing if our table succeeded in chugging our drinks, she told me she'll see what she could do. So a song was sung, and we chugged. The girls came out on top, slamming our glasses on the greasy wooden table. The lead singer was all about one of the girls and invited her up to the mic for a split second asked her name, and proceeded to openly flirt with her in front of everyone.
A couple songs pass and I grew impatient. What kind of band reads the words off the page? I wanted to sing so badly, that in my drunken stupor I rolled up to the lead singer and asked if i could see. He told me to thumb through the lyric pages and see if there was anything. "I don't sing this shit!" I replied. "Do you know any journey?" He felt like the band could not handle an impromptu performance of Dont Stop Believin'. He tells me no and I lean closer, "but its only FOUR CHORDS, how hard is FOUR CHORDS?!" I show him how many with my hand, as if that would persuade him to say okay. All of a sudden I hear a familiar riff come from the guitar, followed by the drums. The guitar player yells over the music to the bass player as to which four chords needed to be played. I look around and the lead singer is on a back up mic. All of a sudden I break into the first verse....and TOTALLY BLANK on the next verse. Luckily one of my coworkers runs up and saves my ass. He sings the next verse and before my eyes I became the lead singer of a band (one of my dreams). There were people on the other side of the bar who came over to dance along and who could blame them? My coworker was booty dancing with the groupies, strangers were dancing to a well known tune, and here I was in my element entertaining everyone. The music ends and applause subsides. We were all happy, especially me. I take me seat and continue to drink my beer. Before the band picks up where they left off, the drummer runs up to me, tells me what good of a job I did and gave me a hug.
Ok, so that wasn't a party; but it was definitely a social gathering. One I will NEVER forget.
The funny thing is I was just talking to someone about this exact thing this evening. It was over the summer and the museum that I work at had extended hours that evening. Most of the staff was working that evening, and I was trying to convince two of my co-workers to come out to karaoke ( which was my usual friday night ritual). Both of them were reluctant, due to the fact that they had just finished a 13 hour shift. Someone else on staff suggest we go to the bar across the street after our shifts were over, and we all agreed.
At first, we almost didn't get into the bar, due to a cover charge; however, one of the bouncers saw us, and was like you let us use your parking lot, so there would be no way that they would charge us. So we got the hook up and went in for free. There was a band and a couple of their groupies. The guys in the band ranged from their late 20s to early 40s. The lead singer was reading off of lyric sheets. Their groupies looked like women who were desperate to recapture their lost youth. Apparently this was NOT the place to be on a friday night. The crowd was sparse, probably due to the lame band.
So anyway, someone buys a pitcher. Followed by another pitcher. All of a sudden we notice the lead singer started to heckle our table. "Who drew the Ace?" the lead singer yelled. I looked around and raised my hand, thinking maybe he would give us something. He challenged us to chug our beers after the next song. Our waitress brought out a pitcher of the beer we had been already quickly consuming since we sat at our table. Right before the song was over, I had asked one of the groupies if i could sing if our table succeeded in chugging our drinks, she told me she'll see what she could do. So a song was sung, and we chugged. The girls came out on top, slamming our glasses on the greasy wooden table. The lead singer was all about one of the girls and invited her up to the mic for a split second asked her name, and proceeded to openly flirt with her in front of everyone.
A couple songs pass and I grew impatient. What kind of band reads the words off the page? I wanted to sing so badly, that in my drunken stupor I rolled up to the lead singer and asked if i could see. He told me to thumb through the lyric pages and see if there was anything. "I don't sing this shit!" I replied. "Do you know any journey?" He felt like the band could not handle an impromptu performance of Dont Stop Believin'. He tells me no and I lean closer, "but its only FOUR CHORDS, how hard is FOUR CHORDS?!" I show him how many with my hand, as if that would persuade him to say okay. All of a sudden I hear a familiar riff come from the guitar, followed by the drums. The guitar player yells over the music to the bass player as to which four chords needed to be played. I look around and the lead singer is on a back up mic. All of a sudden I break into the first verse....and TOTALLY BLANK on the next verse. Luckily one of my coworkers runs up and saves my ass. He sings the next verse and before my eyes I became the lead singer of a band (one of my dreams). There were people on the other side of the bar who came over to dance along and who could blame them? My coworker was booty dancing with the groupies, strangers were dancing to a well known tune, and here I was in my element entertaining everyone. The music ends and applause subsides. We were all happy, especially me. I take me seat and continue to drink my beer. Before the band picks up where they left off, the drummer runs up to me, tells me what good of a job I did and gave me a hug.
Ok, so that wasn't a party; but it was definitely a social gathering. One I will NEVER forget.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Beautifully Different
December 8 – Beautifully Different. Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you’ll find they’re what make you beautiful. (Author: Karen Walrond)
I am finding this post to be particularly difficult. What makes me different? Compared to what? Other girls? Other people? Musicians? Writers? It could mean a multitude of things.
What does separate me from the pack? Hmmmm...
I'm passionate. - Once I have an interest in something, I put my full effort in it to see if it sticks. If it doesn't, I'll move on. I care ALOT about the people I chose to surround myself with.
I dont play games. Games are childish; but I do love board games :P
I'm a kid at heart. - Im easily amused and get excited about things kids would get excited about (like face painting).
I'm not an crazy optimist, but I've learned dwelling on bad things does absolutely NOTHING. This helps me let go an move on.
I have my moments, but I would like to say I am a generally happy person.
I am not afraid to speak my mind. Also, I do not go out of my way to be mean. Thats a fine line that a lot of people like to cross.
I'm a musician. I love music. I love art.
What makes me different is just that. I am me. I will be the only Krystle Dullas living in this time period ( i hope/think). Theres no one else out there exactly like me, and that truly is beautiful.
I am finding this post to be particularly difficult. What makes me different? Compared to what? Other girls? Other people? Musicians? Writers? It could mean a multitude of things.
What does separate me from the pack? Hmmmm...
I'm passionate. - Once I have an interest in something, I put my full effort in it to see if it sticks. If it doesn't, I'll move on. I care ALOT about the people I chose to surround myself with.
I dont play games. Games are childish; but I do love board games :P
I'm a kid at heart. - Im easily amused and get excited about things kids would get excited about (like face painting).
I'm not an crazy optimist, but I've learned dwelling on bad things does absolutely NOTHING. This helps me let go an move on.
I have my moments, but I would like to say I am a generally happy person.
I am not afraid to speak my mind. Also, I do not go out of my way to be mean. Thats a fine line that a lot of people like to cross.
I'm a musician. I love music. I love art.
What makes me different is just that. I am me. I will be the only Krystle Dullas living in this time period ( i hope/think). Theres no one else out there exactly like me, and that truly is beautiful.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Community
December 7 – Community. Where have you discovered community, online or otherwise, in 2010? What community would you like to join, create or more deeply connect with in 2011? (Author: Cali Harris)
I have discovered community in three different places this year:
1) Kappa Kappa Psi, National Honorary Band Fraternity. I have been a part of this organization since Spring of '06. I have had my ups and down with my chapter, but the organization as a whole is filled with some of the most amazing people I have ever met. Even though we are scattered all over the country, it is an amazing thing when we all get together. I am truly proud to call these people my brothers.
2) The Aquarian Bookshop This is where I go for psychic festivals, workshops, and reading. I have encountered so many different people while browsing in this shop. They all offer a different take on life and are always more than happy to help me on my journey to understand the world around me. Also there are people who work there who are truly caring about the people who walk through the door. They check up on check up on how my card reading is going and life is in general. They're a fun group of people (plus they're psychic) :) .
3) Karaoke You meet interesting people in bars. You also come across people you would never want to meet again, but for the most part the people I have met during karaoke have been all really cool. They range from people who sing every week, the KJs, or people who just simply take pleasure in other peoples abilities ( or lack of) to sing.
A community I would like to be more connected with is the Music Therapy community. Music therapy is what I want to do as a career and I would love to learn more and connect more with people who are out in the field. Also, I'd like to be more connected with more people in Richmond.
I have discovered community in three different places this year:
1) Kappa Kappa Psi, National Honorary Band Fraternity. I have been a part of this organization since Spring of '06. I have had my ups and down with my chapter, but the organization as a whole is filled with some of the most amazing people I have ever met. Even though we are scattered all over the country, it is an amazing thing when we all get together. I am truly proud to call these people my brothers.
2) The Aquarian Bookshop This is where I go for psychic festivals, workshops, and reading. I have encountered so many different people while browsing in this shop. They all offer a different take on life and are always more than happy to help me on my journey to understand the world around me. Also there are people who work there who are truly caring about the people who walk through the door. They check up on check up on how my card reading is going and life is in general. They're a fun group of people (plus they're psychic) :) .
3) Karaoke You meet interesting people in bars. You also come across people you would never want to meet again, but for the most part the people I have met during karaoke have been all really cool. They range from people who sing every week, the KJs, or people who just simply take pleasure in other peoples abilities ( or lack of) to sing.
A community I would like to be more connected with is the Music Therapy community. Music therapy is what I want to do as a career and I would love to learn more and connect more with people who are out in the field. Also, I'd like to be more connected with more people in Richmond.
Make
December 6 – Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it? (Author: Gretchen Rubin)
The last thing I made was music. I had to play for a fraternity thing this past Saturday. I like to just play around with the piano, but I barely actually perform. Even though it was just background music, we were in dimly lit quarters, so reading sheet music was not an option. I had to go off the top of my head.
There are always songs I tend to quote when I'm playing: astronaut by amanda palmer, existentialism on prom night by straylight run, and I want you, but I dont need you covered by amanda palmer. This time around I incorporated a couple other songs that I've learned from church. I messed up a coupl eof times, but no one noticed, which is always awesome.
Something I want to make time to make is a watercolor painting using bamboo brushes. I have a whole kit and simply have not had the time to sit down and paint. I miss painting quite a bit.
The last thing I made was music. I had to play for a fraternity thing this past Saturday. I like to just play around with the piano, but I barely actually perform. Even though it was just background music, we were in dimly lit quarters, so reading sheet music was not an option. I had to go off the top of my head.
There are always songs I tend to quote when I'm playing: astronaut by amanda palmer, existentialism on prom night by straylight run, and I want you, but I dont need you covered by amanda palmer. This time around I incorporated a couple other songs that I've learned from church. I messed up a coupl eof times, but no one noticed, which is always awesome.
Something I want to make time to make is a watercolor painting using bamboo brushes. I have a whole kit and simply have not had the time to sit down and paint. I miss painting quite a bit.
Letting Go.
December 5 – Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why? (Author: Alice Bradley)
The one thing I let go of this year ( or at least attempt to) was DRAMA and anything/anyone associated with it. In the last year I have become far more particular about who I surround myself with. Being in a small department within my university, I learned that news travels REAL fast. I was tired of people who would praise me to my face and then turn around and say otherwise. Some may think of me as judgmental, but I like to think it as that I can read people fairly well. There are just some people who claim to be friends but you can only be called a whore so many times by a friend to realize they are not. Also I have noticed that I have a hard time being nice to people I get bad vibes from, so I try to avoid them at all costs.
So why have I let go of DRAMA? Easy. My life is less stressful and instead of helping people through all the drama in their life, I get to focus on working on myself and my problems. Don't get me wrong, I am there for my friends when they need me, I'm just tired of problems that start like " did you hear....?" No. I didn't. I prefer it that way.
The one thing I let go of this year ( or at least attempt to) was DRAMA and anything/anyone associated with it. In the last year I have become far more particular about who I surround myself with. Being in a small department within my university, I learned that news travels REAL fast. I was tired of people who would praise me to my face and then turn around and say otherwise. Some may think of me as judgmental, but I like to think it as that I can read people fairly well. There are just some people who claim to be friends but you can only be called a whore so many times by a friend to realize they are not. Also I have noticed that I have a hard time being nice to people I get bad vibes from, so I try to avoid them at all costs.
So why have I let go of DRAMA? Easy. My life is less stressful and instead of helping people through all the drama in their life, I get to focus on working on myself and my problems. Don't get me wrong, I am there for my friends when they need me, I'm just tired of problems that start like " did you hear....?" No. I didn't. I prefer it that way.
Wonder.
December 4 – Wonder. How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year? (Author: Jeffrey Davis)
Back in February, right before valentines day, I attended an event that had an intuitive reader. During the reading I got to pick one card out of the deck. ( had drawn a card that had something to do with clairaudience, which is similar to clairvoyance, but instead of seeing things, I am supposed to hear things. I have been always interested in things like Tarot, Astrology, and other metaphysical things. This caused me to explore my spiritual side. I started reading cards and numerology. I have learned so much about myself and the way other people act. Also, there is much to learn when it comes to metaphysical studies. One of the things i have learned is to stay open - minded. I believe that has really help me keep a sense of wonder. I am always open to new experiences, like going to NY Comic Con for the first time ever! You can learn a lot from other people as well, meeting new people and being open to others has allowed me to think about things from a different perspective.
Back in February, right before valentines day, I attended an event that had an intuitive reader. During the reading I got to pick one card out of the deck. ( had drawn a card that had something to do with clairaudience, which is similar to clairvoyance, but instead of seeing things, I am supposed to hear things. I have been always interested in things like Tarot, Astrology, and other metaphysical things. This caused me to explore my spiritual side. I started reading cards and numerology. I have learned so much about myself and the way other people act. Also, there is much to learn when it comes to metaphysical studies. One of the things i have learned is to stay open - minded. I believe that has really help me keep a sense of wonder. I am always open to new experiences, like going to NY Comic Con for the first time ever! You can learn a lot from other people as well, meeting new people and being open to others has allowed me to think about things from a different perspective.
Moment.
December 3 – Moment. Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors). (Author: Ali Edwards)
Imagine arriving at your destination after driving for 13 hours; then you are told that you will be presenting in front 500 people later on that afternoon. We had driven through the night to get to Orno Maine from Richmond, VA, so I was caught off guard (probably due to lack of sleep). I don't hate public speaking, but I have never talked in front of that many people before. I headed a committee that decided where convention will be in 2011 and I was kind of scared shitless. The lights were hot and bright. I tweeted about how nervous I was and got plenty of encouragement. The district officers were on stage and national officers were scattered amongst the audience. My breathing became shallow and I was nearly breathless when I began addressing the district. It was odd, having people actually LISTEN to what I had to say. I love my chapter, but at home people often dont take in what I have to say. I usually get lots of blank looks. To have that audience that CARED about what was said was awesome. I remember the cheers of excitement as I announced the location for next years convention, and the applause me and my colleague received after we gave our report. That weekend in Maine was a very memorable one and an experience I will never forget.
Imagine arriving at your destination after driving for 13 hours; then you are told that you will be presenting in front 500 people later on that afternoon. We had driven through the night to get to Orno Maine from Richmond, VA, so I was caught off guard (probably due to lack of sleep). I don't hate public speaking, but I have never talked in front of that many people before. I headed a committee that decided where convention will be in 2011 and I was kind of scared shitless. The lights were hot and bright. I tweeted about how nervous I was and got plenty of encouragement. The district officers were on stage and national officers were scattered amongst the audience. My breathing became shallow and I was nearly breathless when I began addressing the district. It was odd, having people actually LISTEN to what I had to say. I love my chapter, but at home people often dont take in what I have to say. I usually get lots of blank looks. To have that audience that CARED about what was said was awesome. I remember the cheers of excitement as I announced the location for next years convention, and the applause me and my colleague received after we gave our report. That weekend in Maine was a very memorable one and an experience I will never forget.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Writing
December 2 – Writing. What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing — and can you eliminate it? (Author: Leo Babauta)
I get brain fog a lot. I suck at focusing and getting that sort of "tunnel vision" attitude. Also I am really into "me" time, where I do nothing. Also there is school, which is slowly coming to an end. So yeah, I can eliminate part of it, but not fully.
I feel that I just need to be more motivated to write, and write more often. Doing this is a good start.
I get brain fog a lot. I suck at focusing and getting that sort of "tunnel vision" attitude. Also I am really into "me" time, where I do nothing. Also there is school, which is slowly coming to an end. So yeah, I can eliminate part of it, but not fully.
I feel that I just need to be more motivated to write, and write more often. Doing this is a good start.
One Word.
December 1 – One Word. Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you? (Author: Gwen Bell)
okay, so im starting this a little late, but who knows? maybe i can finish the first 6 in one night.
So one word to sum up this year is: change.
I was supposed to graduate in May 2010. That changed. My best friend moved to another country. I learned who my real friends were, and traveled to Maine to be with my fraternity brothers. I spoke in front of over 500 people for the first time. I went to NYCC ( which was amazing). I learned more about myself this year; I figured out my self worth and became more selective in the company I surround myself with. Got addicted to Karaoke, and met some awesome people.
Things did not stay the same as you can tell. Lots of changes and ends to things happened. Looking back on 2010, I would want to say that it was not one that it was one to remember, but there were definitely moments.
For 2011 i think the one word i would like to use would be :happiness.
and thats my story.
okay, so im starting this a little late, but who knows? maybe i can finish the first 6 in one night.
So one word to sum up this year is: change.
I was supposed to graduate in May 2010. That changed. My best friend moved to another country. I learned who my real friends were, and traveled to Maine to be with my fraternity brothers. I spoke in front of over 500 people for the first time. I went to NYCC ( which was amazing). I learned more about myself this year; I figured out my self worth and became more selective in the company I surround myself with. Got addicted to Karaoke, and met some awesome people.
Things did not stay the same as you can tell. Lots of changes and ends to things happened. Looking back on 2010, I would want to say that it was not one that it was one to remember, but there were definitely moments.
For 2011 i think the one word i would like to use would be :happiness.
and thats my story.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Struggling to Stay Afloat
What happened? One second I'm ready to conquer the world.. and the next I can barely keep my life from falling apart. I was motivated, but something got lost in the mix. I got lazy and fell behind, and now im kicking myself in the behind for doing so.
I wasn't always like this. There was a point in time where I would get my work done, be excited about what I was doing and where I was going, but now...nothing. Am I slowly starting to be a part of that rut that I have dreaded to become a part of? I don't know. I just know that my motivation to do just about everything has dwindled down to nothing.
There was the thought of voice over work, finishing up my classes, and just other things in the works for things. Now im not doing so hot in school, pushing voice over work back, and work has just not been as fun as it has been.
I hope this changes.
I wasn't always like this. There was a point in time where I would get my work done, be excited about what I was doing and where I was going, but now...nothing. Am I slowly starting to be a part of that rut that I have dreaded to become a part of? I don't know. I just know that my motivation to do just about everything has dwindled down to nothing.
There was the thought of voice over work, finishing up my classes, and just other things in the works for things. Now im not doing so hot in school, pushing voice over work back, and work has just not been as fun as it has been.
I hope this changes.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
a year in the making
I was talking to a friend the other night about much growing i have gone through in the last year. We all don't want to grow up, but I am very grateful that I feel that I have grown leaps and bounds from where I was this time last year. There were definitely weeks where I was not...cautious, but I threw caution to the wind since time is still on my side and I am only young once. Don't get me wrong, last summer was tons of fun, just a little wreckless.
Now that the summer has come and gone, I know that where I was a year a ago is not where I am today. I LOVED going out. I was addicted to karaoke, and stopped caring about my school work. This year, I'm set to graduate, and things are looking up. Things are changing, but not too quickly.
I really do look forward to what the next three months have in store for me. Here's what I have to say: bring it.
Now that the summer has come and gone, I know that where I was a year a ago is not where I am today. I LOVED going out. I was addicted to karaoke, and stopped caring about my school work. This year, I'm set to graduate, and things are looking up. Things are changing, but not too quickly.
I really do look forward to what the next three months have in store for me. Here's what I have to say: bring it.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
a change in scenery never hurt
Lately I have felt uninspired about my writing. Its so hard to FORCE out what you want to say, when you have tons of things stuck in your head that you want to write about. I'm currently in the process of writing an epic blog all about meeting those that inspire you, but its just not blog worthy just yet.
Anyway, now to the topic on hand. I moved to a new apartment a week ago. It's definitely an upgrade from where I used to live, but the move was a little bittersweet. I had lived in my old place for three years, and one year I had given the place to two really good friends of mine. It was also my first off campus apartment. It had been such a part of my life and leaving it was saddening, even it it was a craphole. It was MY craphole. Don't get me wrong, I was not a fan when my water was randomly shut off, and the construction zone it is now becoming, and when the building caught on fire for the SECOND time...I was not amused.
But this place also was the center of many late night talks, good company with good drinks, the place we would run to when we didn't want to deal with drama, or the place where we sat down and really talked things through with one another. It was also convenient that a bunch of friends also lived in the same building. My old place is where I grew, and after this last year, I really felt that it was time to move on, from the apartment that a young 20 year old once lived in. Knowing that I was the last one to live there before it will be remodeled makes me smile. Apartment #21 wasn't just meaningful to me; it was indirectly passed down between my fraternity brothers, and just full of memories to so many different people. With all that was changing at the end of the semester, a change of scenery seemed to fit in perfectly.
The new place is nice. It is only three years old, and has all the things that one would hope for in a new place. I no longer have to search for quarters or wait until I go to my parents house to do laundry. I don't have to do dishes, and central air is just blissful. I now live with four cats and two girls, but it has been pretty nice. I wake up, come over to my laptop and check my e-mail, twitter, fb, etc. while one of my cats sits on the chair and greets me good morning. I proceed to eat breakfast, get ready for work, and then head over to the museum. It is nice to finally have some type of structure and its even better that none of the cats fight with one another. I feel that eventually new memories will be made, and I have no doubt that in time I can call this place Home. I'm excited to what this change in scenery will bring, and I know that it will be all for the better.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
We always try to stay as optimistic as possible when things come to an end. "It's not goodbye, it's see ya later," or "this isn't the end, this is just the beginning," or whatever phrase we use in order to cover up the fact the what is about to happen may actually not be as happy as we would like to believe. It's just so odd that often times we stifle so many of our emotions that as a society, we can not deal with emotions.
When we were younger, when we were not happy, something was "wrong." Why is being unhappy wrong? With the good comes the bad. Good times are not nearly as special until you have experienced the bad.We can not truly experience what love is until we have been heart broken.
Things in my life are changing pretty quick, and I feel like a new chapter of my life is upon me. I felt that have a record of these changes would be helpful/useful/therapeutic, but above all, and outlet to just write down what I'm going through. So sit back, relax, and enjoy the ride :)
When we were younger, when we were not happy, something was "wrong." Why is being unhappy wrong? With the good comes the bad. Good times are not nearly as special until you have experienced the bad.We can not truly experience what love is until we have been heart broken.
Things in my life are changing pretty quick, and I feel like a new chapter of my life is upon me. I felt that have a record of these changes would be helpful/useful/therapeutic, but above all, and outlet to just write down what I'm going through. So sit back, relax, and enjoy the ride :)
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